ANYWAY

My peers do often call me the Lord of all Tightwads, which of course, I totally disagree.. sort of! *wink* I'd rather call myself a wise spender or, just a man practicing the 'delaying gratification' concept - save now spend and enjoy later. Maybe this attitude is due to my ultimate goal of retiring at an early age and being 'matipid' is one way of achieving that goal. But it seems to me that being the thrifty persona in me is expiring and it drives me crazy..

Before, I remember, I always keep track of my savings. I either check my accounts online or through phone just to check whether my hard earned savings is still intact. Now, I don't even know what is left of my account, and worse even, I can't remember the last time I put money in my account! I also check how much I'm spending using my credit card and when it is due. Now, I'm almost always surprised that I purchase that much in month!What is happening to me!

Before, when I go to coffee shops to finish school or office work, I tend to bring with me a sachet of instant coffee just to avoid paying 150 bucks for a starbucks coffee! Yes I did that! But now, I really care less how much startbucks coffee I consume in a week. I'm probably spending 2,000 pesos in a month for Mr or Ms Starbucks. I'm rattling while writing this!

Before, when I go to school, I usually tell myself to just ride a jeep so that I end up paying just 7.50 instead of spending 100 or so worth of gas. Now I can't even think of riding a jeep and often justify that riding the PUVs are dangerous and slow moving.

And now, despite of the depleting savings, I'm even thinking of many things I need to buy! Waah! I really don't know what is happening to me or if this is a good or bad thing. I can think of many before and now scenarios but it sort of depresses me. Especially thinking how much bank account was before the year starts. Aahh. I guess I have to work harder to satisfy this spending urge. Hope that in time I could revive at least 30% of the tightwad-ness I had before